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[personal profile] zewu_jun 2020-03-30 04:29 am (UTC)(link)
Mm, but I felt much better after talking to you earlier. It was difficult for me, and I want to be able to return to you the relief you gave me. Being able to speak to someone... It's been a while since I've been able to do that.

[He carefully sets each cup and tool down in their right place, fingers moving them delicately into position with fractions of turns until they look the way they should. He even pulls out a small container of water that he brought specifically for the tea, because it has to be good quality.]

I hope my company will at least suffice.
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[personal profile] zewu_jun 2020-03-31 02:55 am (UTC)(link)
[Just the word of agreement is enough to get him to relax, even if it doesn't show very much in his movements. He's still carefully making the tea and adding a small plate to the table while it steeps, following a prescribed routine that he knows by heart. A small tea cake ends up on the plate, and as Xichen pours the tea into a cup for Grace, he glances up to catch her eyes.]

Then I shall trouble you for a bit longer while we are here. In truth, I am not sure what to think of last night.

[He gently moves the cup and plate toward her, eyes drifting down to the table.]
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[personal profile] zewu_jun 2020-03-31 03:37 am (UTC)(link)
[He smiles, but he keeps his head down, laughing with just a breath.]

I should not have done that. I know it was wrong, and if I were at home, I would have been punished when I awoke. Waking up to your message was a sign that I truly am far from home with nothing familiar to me.

On my way here, I thought of how the Grand Master would be upset to learn that the Sect Leader acted like a child, sneaking behind his back, and I wanted to hear it. He would be enraged.
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[personal profile] zewu_jun 2020-03-31 03:58 am (UTC)(link)
Mm. [He waits as well, but more to see if she'll drink the tea he poured her. After a bit of finding Grace isn't drinking the tea, Xichen nods.]

But I was happy to talk to you. Even though I was wrong and I won't drink again, having you talk to me was worth it. It's different from home, but I am glad to have the experience.

Is this what you meant before? Learning from your senses?
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[personal profile] zewu_jun 2020-03-31 04:14 am (UTC)(link)
I have been trying to learn.

[Maybe his experience with himself is a little less tuned than other people's, but Xichen sits up straight as he says that, as if making it a formal declaration. Or maybe he's just pleased to see her drinking the tea, who knows?]

It would be worth the punishment. I don't remember what happened, but it was worth waking up today. I believe I have seen a different perspective to the morning, and that is something I would not have known otherwise.
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[personal profile] zewu_jun 2020-04-01 01:39 am (UTC)(link)
It was a painful lesson, but true knowledge does not come easily. I'm grateful for it.

[He's certainly not jumping into wild experiences at his rate, but he at least has a bit more of a perspective now. Maybe it isn't so bad not to expect things to end a certain way.]

I have never been homesick.
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[personal profile] zewu_jun 2020-04-02 02:25 am (UTC)(link)
I think so.

[He looks unsure, although he's still smiling with the quiet acceptance he always has.]

Before, I... have been frightened, worried for my family, but I suppose I always assumed that either I would return or that it would not matter. I didn't have time to miss it.
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[personal profile] zewu_jun 2020-04-02 03:31 am (UTC)(link)
[Xichen smiles in return, although he doesn't seem completely convinced.]

Mm. I sometimes think of the mist in the morning. It was cold, with the smell of dew on the plants. But if I should stand too long recalling that scent and that feeling, I would never see the sun outside my room here. And I am afraid of drifting downstream.

[If he pauses now and lingers, he'll make no progress and start sliding back. It was always easier before, even during the worst of things, because he always had a foundation in a way. But now it feels like that foundation was wrong, and in a sentimental and insecure moment, it's the small things that keep holding him up.]
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[personal profile] zewu_jun 2020-04-02 03:47 am (UTC)(link)
[Xichen pauses to consider that, then shakes his head.]

Not as good as I might be, I think. Avoiding temptation is not the same as knowing where the balance lies. And I have failed to find that in the past already.

[Several times, if he really starts counting.]

The space within my home was small. We were a significant sect, but life was simple and easy to manage. Yearning is like a vast lake. I have only stood upon a boat, never gone in it.
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[personal profile] zewu_jun 2020-04-02 04:19 am (UTC)(link)
[The quiet should be disconcerting, but Xichen is content, waiting on the wisdom of his more experienced friend. And she gives him the reassurance he wanted to hear. Just knowing that she thinks it will become easier makes his shoulders relax slightly. He leans forward and reaches out to refill her cup with the teapot, but as he moves, a small ball of fur comes darting out of his sleeve, landing on the table with an alarmed noise.]

Ah, no, don't- Come here. [The squirrel holds its ground, looking highly unamused by this change of location.]

I'm sorry. It was asleep; I didn't want to leave it.
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[personal profile] zewu_jun 2020-04-02 04:31 am (UTC)(link)
I don't know.

[Xichen is distraught. This is clearly not something he's used to happening with his tea.]

When I awoke, it was curled up on my chest. I must have picked it up.

[It's as likely as anything, really.]

I thought it would stay asleep. It seemed calm before.
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[personal profile] zewu_jun 2020-04-02 05:35 am (UTC)(link)
[The squirrel looks between the two, taking small, sharp steps back and forth as it assesses its surroundings and tries to decide what to do. Finally, it skitters toward Grace, giving her hand a curious test sniff. It seems to keep still there, at least content to sit and not run away.]

It might be young. I feel sorry for it. It must miss its family.

[He pulls a few seeds from a pouch in his sleeve and sets them down near Grace's hand, letting the squirrel take them. It stuffs the seeds in its mouth and stays put where it is, accepting that this is its new home.]

I would take it back, but I don't remember where it came from.
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[personal profile] zewu_jun 2020-04-03 02:59 am (UTC)(link)
[The squirrel seems happy enough for a squirrel. With food and no immediate threat, it seems to adopt the weird humans as its providers. When Grace pets it, the small eyes close as if the squirrel is resting or thinking.]

Mm. I put it down before and it stayed with me. I think trying to leave it would be abandoning it, and I don't want to do that. I'm glad it came along. It seems to like you.

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