[He seems to sigh a little, letting go of a breath he doesn't know what to do with.]
Everything is confusing lately. What I should do and what I am putting everyone through. It seems that every step I take is the wrong one and someone else gets hurt.
[ For him? That one is hard, because if he's really, truly honest with himself, what Lan Xichen wants seems to conflict with everything. ]
I... would like everyone to be happy and at peace. Perhaps not close to each other, but satisfied enough that we can all live without fighting. It is... more difficult than it sounds.
[ Her eyebrows lift just a little at that decree, But Grace nods without comment. ]
The others, they don't trust your judgement in this case?
[ He's always seemed more than reasonable to her, but Grace is also very, very outside of whatever this situation is. And it sounds much too close and too painful for everyone involved. ]
I'm not certain that doesn't mean you can't come to some compromise.
[ That no one seems at all willing to even meet him halfway seems odd, but Grace will hold her tongue on that score. Lan Xichen has always seemed the sort to put his energy into making everyone else happy. ]
[ At least he knows one person who is willing to believe that compromise is possible. It may take time and it may be difficult, but it's nice to have one voice say they hope for the best. ]
![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
no subject
[ She would like to think she knows him well enough by now to be very certain of that. ]
I won't say it isn't complicated. [ Grace herself being a prime example of that. ] But I don't necessarily think it's a bad thing.
no subject
[He seems to sigh a little, letting go of a breath he doesn't know what to do with.]
Everything is confusing lately. What I should do and what I am putting everyone through. It seems that every step I take is the wrong one and someone else gets hurt.
I wonder if I am not truly worse than I believed.
no subject
Irrespective of anyone else's thoughts or opinions, what would you consider to be the best outcome? For you, specifically.
[ It's a struggle sometimes, to get people to think selfishly even in the abstract. Part of her wonders if he can. ]
no subject
I... would like everyone to be happy and at peace. Perhaps not close to each other, but satisfied enough that we can all live without fighting. It is... more difficult than it sounds.
no subject
[ And not only because she trusts him implicitly. Even from what little he's said, it seems like emotions run high for everyone in this situation. ]
What do you think it would take to make that happen?
no subject
But that is something I want to prevent at all costs.
[He sighs deeply.]
In fact, I want the opposite. And that is unforgivable.
no subject
The others, they don't trust your judgement in this case?
[ He's always seemed more than reasonable to her, but Grace is also very, very outside of whatever this situation is. And it sounds much too close and too painful for everyone involved. ]
no subject
[ He looks down with a soft smile that doesn't really hide or deny his guilt. ]
They have good reasons for their desire to remove such things from their lives, as I have for wanting to keep them.
no subject
[ That no one seems at all willing to even meet him halfway seems odd, but Grace will hold her tongue on that score. Lan Xichen has always seemed the sort to put his energy into making everyone else happy. ]
I hope you can, in any case.
no subject
[ At least he knows one person who is willing to believe that compromise is possible. It may take time and it may be difficult, but it's nice to have one voice say they hope for the best. ]
If there is a way, then I will find it.