[Although he is red eyed and still a bit shaky, Lan Xichen does manage to keep a soft voice and mostly composed appearance as far as his hair and robes are arranged. He's doing his best to maintain some look of decency after crying for what is now too many times after just getting his brothers back. That should probably be a warning sign, but he has never really noticed the correlation before.]

I... made a judgment, but I'm afraid I wasn't prepared. I thought I knew, but I am still not close to understanding anything. I need your advice.

[Because he definitely hasn't given up this choice of his. It's a question of regaining control.]

You believe that even the most difficult experiences have merit. Has there been any you thought too hard? Any that you would give back if you could?